Where is the Ordinary World

   My Family and I suffered a loss that has my heart in pieces. The world took from us my uncle and 4 months later his daughter 35 and about to walk down the isle . Sunday I had my last fitting for her wedding. Monday she passed away her name is Stephanie . She was my cousin more my sister even 5000 miles between us couldn't break the bond. She and I fought like sisters and loved like sisters. I could shoot her a look across the room and she would just laugh. We laughed , cried , danced like fools. We shared all our hopes and dreams. She was not only my cousin but my forever friend. Steph turned me on to Depeche Mode, Chuck Taylor's , Latte . She volunteered sending packages to the troops. Helping youth AIDS and HIV awareness . Was seriously one of those people who had this infectious laugh. She adopted Boston Sports teams even living far away. I nicknamed her Little Southie for her Irish heritage. We had allot of shanagins in our youth I'm glad we did.




She lived just outside of Seattle. I cant get my mind around it but I know shed call me a geek for writing this in PTB . Which she liked this blog even though she thought I may have finally lost it. My heart aches and my head is numb. So if you have a " Stephanie " in your life . Call her , hug her tight, tell her what she means to you. Never let time elapse without her in your life.If you find the way to the Ordinary World let me know for it seems I have lost my way too it . I am in need of it for it . My mind dosent know how this happens ?

Dance Like No one is Watching
Author: unknown
We convince ourselves that life will be better after
we get married, have a baby, then another.
Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough
and we'll be more content when they are.


After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with.
We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.
We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our
spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer
car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire.


The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now.
If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges.
It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.
Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have
and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special,
special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time
waits for no one.


So, stop waiting


--until your car or home is paid off
--until you get a new car or home
--until your kids leave the house
--until you go back to school
--until you lose ten pounds
--until you gain ten pounds
--until you finish school
--until you get a divorce
--until you get married
--until you have kids
--until you retire
--until summer
--until spring
--until winter
--until fall
--until you die


There is no better time than RIGHT NOW to be happy.


Happiness is a JOURNEY, not a destination.


So -- work like you don't need money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching.