This Girl is on Fire

Purse Cake my Auntie made me 

I sit in my kitchen looking at allot of chores to be done. Ive had a to myself days where you hope the phone doesn't ring . You aren't lonely your just a alone. Where you attend to the little things that a quiet day can get done. I walked to the store to grab a few things. It has been raining for two days. As I crossed the street the sun came out . I could feel the warmth on my skin and face. I stayed there for a moment to soak it in . Didn't know when it would come back. I watched allot of documentaries this weekend. My mind is wanted a challenge so I restored some purses and did some art work.

I dreamed of lying by the Mediterranean sea with salt drenched skin and hair sunning myself on a rock like a turtle. I've never been to the Mediterranean though I know it when I see it in pictures or movies before it is mentioned. I know it is  It’s the way its waters reflect off of the sun. Seems so calm and cleansing in a way.  There is a point to this blog . I always write a blog post for my birthday on my blog.

When I was a little girl I thought Id  end up being Sleeping  Beauty
I didn't know that fairy tales don't happen . No one will rescue you
You will have to rescue yourself.

I thought my life would change when the clock stoke midnight on New Years Eve. I thought it didn't though it did little did I know it .  I didn't wake up with everything in order. I woke up and watched the twilight zone marathon which seemed fitting. On the brink of depression and helplessness I found the strength to move forward. With the help of loving friends family and my man believing in me.

I realized the change I needed wasn't going to be an overnight venture to say the least. I was going to have to reinvent myself. I had to take a different path to finding a job. This sounds simple though the whole reinvention thing is overwhelming especially when you are on a tight deadline. Even though days were hard I would have to get up and take my classes to keep my skill set up to date to propel.

I thought that I would magically be adopted by a company. This wasn't going to happen I was going to have to go for it . There was no room for fear, insecurity, doubt . When your life is on the line these aren’t options. You quickly turn from the maybe I can attitude to I have to get it done. When you know what you want the goal is obtainable.

 I have received support and mentoring from a organization called Dress for Success. They helped me see myself in a new light. In my 38^th year I move into it with a sense of acceptance and empowerment. I urge all women to foster a mentor attitude with each other. Im very blessed to have a radio show so many opportunities. Total Radio UK saw my talent and empowered me. Now I am armed with the confidence to work it in so many ways.  Most women think there value fades as they age. I actually think you get better it’s a beautiful thing to have a birthday. Even if I wasn't given one gift . I got one more year to be here and get it done.